Tuesday, November 20, 2007

The Last Garden Spot In Chicago

Dear Blogger,
Things are getting a little backed up here, and I’ve been getting ready to go out of town for Thanksgiving.
Chicago Lawn is an important place in Chicago history, and also in United States history. I’m doing a directed study on the identities of two groups that appeared in Chicago Lawn: The Civil Rights Movement, specifically the Open-Housing Movement… and the National Socialist Party of America. And I’m also doing a presentation for my seminar class on attempts during the sixties to build a racial border between West Englewood (a black neighborhood) and Chicago Lawn (a then white neighborhood). As both of these topics hold a fairly complex history, and as they're fairly closely related, and I don’t want to give you a lecture, I’m going to give you what I’m studying and learning, piece-by-piece.
On Sunday I went with Ani and our seminar teacher, Leesa, to Chicago Lawn (also known as Marquette Park), and this is when I took my most recent photos. In the early sixties, Chicago Lawn was almost entirely white (99.9%), and was fairly affluent. During this time, West Englewood, a neighborhood just to the east was beginning to integrate, and more specifically, the wealthy white people there were beginning to leave for the suburbs. This, of course, caused the people in Chicago Lawn to panic. When rich people flee, the businesses have no business, causing money to disappear, which then causes jobs to disappear, and then the neighborhood just goes to hell. Of course, hell only stops by when the realtors buy property for cheap, and then sell it for twice the buying price, so no one can actually afford to stay in hell once they buy a house there. So what's going to happen to the people in Chicago Lawn that don't want to leave their homes?
About the time that Chicago Lawn was beginning to actually integrate, a bank owner (whose name I can’t remember) proposed building a wall separating Chicago Lawn and West Englewood essentially enforcing segregation.
Now, the interesting thing about this wall is that it wasn’t intended to be some gigantic, concrete wall separating the neighborhoods, like East and West Germany. It was actually intended to be some kind of neutral zone, like in North and South Korea, the Demilitarized Zone: a place where nothing can economically exist and no one would want to exist. This wall, what they called a “natural barrier”, would keep the neighborhoods successfully segregated. (In the photo album, this place is where there are vacant lots surrounded by fences and barbwire with garbage stuck on it, and some photos of traffic tunnels we walked through.) I’m not sure if everything there was going to be torn down and just left barren, or if it would be toxic place where no one would want to be build anything for fear of being alienated by their neighbors, or how the wall could come to be, at all.
Speaking of existing, this wall doesn’t really have a name. Leesa referred to it as the Western Avenue Wall, due to proximity with Western Avenue. (She was more specific in naming it in the Bell/Oakley/Claremont street area.) So far as a few searches on Google can tell me, this wall has no documented history, it’s something that people alive at the time all knew about. (We talked to a man in a restaurant and he told us that it was an internal boundary. Meaning that no one really drew the boundary. You just knew when you were out of place, and so did everyone else around.) And what’s the point of naming something that doesn’t technically exist? And it won’t technically exist anymore when the people who created it and enforced it are all dead.
But there is nothing really there anymore at the Wall. Just some old abandoned coal building, some cracked parking lots, empty traffic tunnels, and some solar panels that probably aren't powering anything in a vacant lot. (Is nothing there, because the formerly successful businesses all leave or fail when the neighborhood integrated indirectly leaving this spot vacant? Or, did the Wall come into some kind of vague existence with no one saying anything to anyone else outside of Chicago Lawn, making it a purposeless border when the neighborhood eventually integrated?)
It’s some kind of vague, secretive purgatory.
Happy Thanksgiving,
Steve

Sunday, November 18, 2007

1447

Dear Blogger,
I've gone all around Chicago this weekend! A parade downtown, and a trip through the Southwest. I took roughly 150 photos, and here the 80 best of them:
http://www.flickr.com/photos/20471837@N08/sets/72157603123890379/
And, please, I'm serious when I say this:
these are the best, most important photos I've taken so far, at least personally. If you haven't been looking at my albums, I think you should at least look at these ones. They're deeply crucial to most of what I'm going to be talking about, from here on out. (I'm talking about the photos from the Southwest Side, as they pertain to my directed study and seminar project... but I'll be covering those, soon.)
I won't say anymore, but please look at them.
Rock Hard & Rock Steady,
Steve

Tuesday, November 13, 2007

Hell's Kitchen

Dear Blogger,
I was reading Batman: The Long Halloween this weekend (very highly recommended), and I was pleased to see that a mob family from Chicago played a significant role in Gotham City's organized crime syndicate.
When I first got here, the Chicago mafia, the Chicago Outfit was coming to trial for various crimes. (Operation Family Secrets! Sons turning against fathers! Racketeering conspiracies! 18 counts of murder! An anonymous jury!) Unfortunately, I kind of lost track of what was happening, but it's expected to severely dismantle the Outfit. And also, the Daley Family (Richard J. Daley who was mayor during the sixties and seventies and father of the current mayor) are rumored to have some connections to the Outfit.
I don't really have much to say, but here's the wikipedia entry, in case you're interested:
Leave The Gun And Take The Cannolis,
Steve

Monday, November 12, 2007

A Gritty, Urban Crime Drama

Dear Blogger,
One of the most difficult things about living in a city, and please stick with me on this I know that I write about this all of the time, is that it is hard to realize that a lot of the things that happen here could never really happen in suburbia. The homeless here don't get rounded up by the local cops for peeing under that bridge, because it was a little to close to the golf course to go unnoticed, really. The cops and the homeless are two completely separate entities in Chicago. There are no cops in Chicago that look like Keith Charles, and there are no homeless guys here that ride on trains and sing songs with Pee-Wee Herman.
But, see, it's difficult. The cops here have a long history of violence, racism, hatred, and complete indifference to the people they are sworn to protect. I've seen people get off a bus and cross the street when the police come around with their sniffing dogs. There are people here that will avoid the police at all costs, and for good reasons, too.
It's heavy to deal with.
There's a reason I'm telling you this:
I was walking back from the 57th Street Bookstore today, and I saw a guy running down the street to catch a bus that was waiting for passengers. He was carrying something under his arm in that kind of awkward way, with one arm over the top to hold against him and his left arm supporting the bottom, while he ran kind of leaned forward.
I have actually seen this man, an elderly man, a number of times, in front of the Original House of Pancakes, which I walk past on my way to and from work. Sometimes he asks me for money, but he hasn't for a while. I've given him change, and I'd really like to help him, but how many times can I give him a quarter? Am I even helping him? Is there anything else I can do?
A lot of people run places in Hyde Park, especially when they're trying to catch their bus. But this guy was apparently being chased. Another man, a police officer came running around a corner after the homeless man.
It's really heavy to deal with, seeing someone you've tried to help in the past. Someone that you've heard about, growing up in Oberlin, the people you're told to help (it's not their fault, they're victims of society, you know).
I turned around to hear this cop yell, "Stop! Someone stop him! That's not his!"
The guy he was chasing was getting closer to the bus at this point. A kid who looked like a high school student, grabbed the thief and kind of half-tripped, half-swung him to the ground. The poor guy had dropped his bag at this time, and all of the contents had fallen out. I was close enough at this point to see that the homeless man had stolen a gigantic block of cheese from someone.
And the cop had caught up to us at this point and says, "Awww, man! That's nacho cheese!"
Happy Veteran's Day,
Steve

Thursday, November 8, 2007

Miller's Crossing

Dear Blogger,
I was able to weasel my way into Social Research with the help of Dr. Togunde, and a few exchanges with the registrar.
I spend most of my time at college wanting to take a creative writing class and when I finally get in, I have to back out. How does that happen?
Things at work have been going well. I'm officially friends with one of the eight year old boys, Timothee. He's absolutely hilarious and absolutely adorable. He likes to climb on me when I'm talking to someone else, so I'll often have to shake him off, pick him up, and then put him in a seat.

Although, tiny little things sometimes happen that really get under my skin.
There's a family of four kids, the Adebanjos. Elizabeth being the oldest, then Michael, then Anu, and then Emmanuel. Being the oldest, Elizabeth is generally dependable to do her own thing and not get into trouble, and also, to help out if children start to get out of hand.
Yesterday, Emmanuel did something that I didn't see-- but I did turn around in time to see Elizabeth slap him on the cheek. I told her that she shouldn't slap him like that, she said she does that when he acts up, and I told her to Please don't do that in the classroom, though. (Keep in mind that from 5:20-6, I'm the only adult in the room.)
Like any small child, Emmanuel started crying hysterically. He climbed onto his chair, and then he climbed onto the table. I was able to get him to sit down, but not get off the table. I thought he had calmed down at this point, but then he jumped off the table and started hitting Elizabeth and continued crying liked he had been.
The weird part is that he kind of stopped hitting her, and started half hugging her and half-slapping her sides, but he was still crying although not as hard. I asked her if he was okay and she said that he was. After that, he seemed so exhausted that he just sort of collapsed onto the ground and lay there. I started rubbing his back and telling him to take deep breaths, and asking him if he was okay, he got up and started to run, but I grabbed him, and I told him to keep taking deep breaths. He kept crying, and then it just turned into some strange kind of exhausted self-healing process that no one really can put words on until it's finished.
This seems like it was something that had started at home, got bottled up, repressed (the other two siblings stayed back, and even seemed ambivalent for most of the time, although, they did help to settle Emmanuel down towards the end), and then it all just kind of exploded at once, and then settled into what's kind of like the unease that comes after a bad storm: you know what happened was awful, you just don't want to do about anything.
It was really the only time at work that I was at a complete loss for what to do. I asked Elizabeth to just take them home, as it was a little before six o'clock. Mostly I was afraid of what Emmanuel was capable of doing-- to himself and to anyone else who might have gotten in his way. It was kind of like seeing all of his repressed energy and anger and anything else that he might have inside of him blow out of him at once, and it just kept coming and coming and was somewhere between rage and terror, but still healing for him in some way.
Also, being the only adult, and being in an environment that isn't very well equipped for any sort of disaster/emergency (we don't have any Band-Aids in the classroom!), what was I supposed to do if anyone had gotten seriously hurt? It's a lot of responsibility that I don't know if I'm prepared for.
There were twelve other kids standing there, watching us or not watching us (I can't remember), and as all of my energy was focused on this one kid for a good ten/fifteen minutes, they could have done some awful things. This made me realize on the ride home, that for the first time since I've worked there, I had absolutely no control over the classroom. Children are capable of terrifying things, in terrifying moments.
But don't you think control is entirely a state of mind?
Let's think about that for a while...
Have A Good One,
Steve

Wednesday, November 7, 2007

Raw Meat & Egg Yolks

Dear Blogger,
I've registered for classes, and, of course, everything went kind-of-close to according-to-plan. Here's what I'm taking:
  • Men and Masculinities
  • Introductory Geology (With Keith and Ani!)
  • Geology Lab
  • Social Psych: Soc Perspectives
  • Introduction to Creative Writing

This is pretty good. I got three of the four classes that I wanted. Except that the one class I wanted (Social Research), wouldn't let me in. I think it's because there is a stats class that sociology majors need to take, and I took RDA I in its place, so the interwub got confused and won't accept it. So I e-mailed Dr. Togunde and he told me to bring him the forms to sign, meaning that I can get in, but I'm off-campus so I'm going to call the registar's office in just a minute.

And the Chicago Center also gives us these journals that we have to write in ever day. Meaning that we all put it off to the last minute. On the 15th, we have our third section due, and I've been writing a few entries a day so that I don't need to write them all at the last second and want to kill myself because I'm so bored, like I always am when I write them. Turns out that no matter when I write them, I'm still bored with the assignment. My daily routine isn't so exciting that I have something new, let alone insightful, to say about anything.

(In Senior Composition in high school, we had to do this same assignment. I was just as bored with that, so I started making up story lines. For example, I wrote a lot about a horse I had named Henry, that ran away and got hit by a train near my grandparent's house in Kentucky, which I saw, and which traumatized me for life, and senior year I started having flashbacks. Although, the only reason I got away with this is because Mr. Blair thought I had a great sense of humor and told me that he appreciated my creativity and compared me to James Thurber for some reason.)

The dewey-eyed small-town boy living in a big city and pointing out things that everyone else overlooks from years of experience will only take you so far. It's just dumb.

Suicide is Pa-ai-ai-ai-nless,

Steve

Saturday, November 3, 2007

Zabel Sandwich

Dear Blogger,
I'm going to Evanston this evening to see Daniel. Isn't that exciting? I've never been to Evanston before, except on a train.
I also went to Navy Pier yesterday for the first time since I've been here.
It's not really that exciting of a place.
Salutations,
Steve